January 2012
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I'm ready for a new tumblr.
New chapter(s). New beginnings. New stories to tell. New everything. :) Goodbye.
December 2011
2 posts
Old memories I just wanna forget.
I’m making a new tumblr.
November 2011
2 posts
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Just another product of the matrix This maze I'm...
October 2011
30 posts
This place isnt for me.
Im done with social networks.
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It seems like I’ll never be happy with myself & my life & everything it offers …
I’m going to go curl up in a ball ….
I try to control everything in my life; I ruin everything. Im possessive as fuck & I wonder if thats why guys dont try to be with me. I shut everyone out when I get too close & I know thats what fucks me up every time. Im naggy as fuck & I constantly complain cos all I want is more, more, more. & im never satisfied.
On the contrary … I give my everything to people who dont...
Late night thoughts
Putting myself whole-heartedly in everything and those I invest my time in, its so hard not to keep trying. Im that type to keep on keepin on until I had enough. & this, this isnt it. I want this. Everyone just back up off me and let me do me. & when the house of cards fall that im trying to build, ill build them back up cos thats just what I do. Its me. So when im doin everything you...
I miss the guy I fell in love with.
Theres a clone that looks like him but he’s different. ): Its not him, but if you found him, let me know. Where are you? )’:
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The worst feeling is being second best.
Especially when your first choice is your whole life. So that just mean’s I’m last best. So I’m not really best. I’m just the last choice.
If I'm not worth the fight, then you're not worth...
Lights - The Listening
I’m just tryna get...
What’s weird is that even people that treated me bad in the end treated me better than this during the run. & what’s worse is that I know this isn’t the end, so I just have to keep going through this being treated wrong shit… ? I’m fucking dumb. I should stop posting shit now before I go & offend someone, but it’s probably too late now.
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No one else will go beyond the limitations of my expectations besides myself. Does that even make sense? In my head, I’m always saying “I can’t.” In the end, it’s me that overcomes that. I need to focus on myself, my own happiness. I can’t keep running to someone that constantly fails me. I mean, it was there at one point in time — the person always...
For Christmas I want,
Macbook Pro
iPad
Desk
My room painted beige
Giraffe things
boots, lots of them in random colors
rain boots that fit my legs lol
nyquil & dayquil pills
a dozen roses
toblerone, sour patch kids, gum, & whoppers
elf make up brushes
levis
skinny belts
North Face Jacket (with a hood)
I will probably get all of this for myself -__-
Dear boyfriend, I want you to make a day for...
Listening to Lights is so relevant right now.
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Why don't you just throw my heart back at me...
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I wish I could disappear.
I’ve been feelin like I’ve been at my all time low the last few days & everyday I wake up, it feels like i’m getting to a lower and lower point. Can I hit rock bottom already? I’m fucking up in school, my relationship is shitty right now, and every time I’m at work I feel depressed. I don’t know why, but it’s been so hard for me to grasp college...
Redoing my room is so much fun
I’m so stoked about how I’m going to get rid of my big dresser thing & big ol bed. A lot of people would probably rather just stick to a bigger bed, but my room is so tiny & I have such a little body, a smaller bed would be better. Although I love how comfy my mattress is now, I just need more space in my room. I cleaned out my room and closet these past 2 days. I have a...
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Currently wide awake,
Christmas shopping online
Finding hotels for this mini road trip
Checking grades
Make lists of what I have to do
& thinking about how I’m gonna wake up for work later haha
Goodnight.
I tried general tso shrimp today instead of...
AMAZING DISCOVERY.
It's so collllld.
It makes me think of Christmas! I’m currently making a list for loved ones. It’s about to be long. I need to make a seperate savings account for that. hahaha
It may just be me feeling sick, but I feel like...
September 2011
39 posts
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Tumblr & facebook ruined the quality of the photos
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Update,
I’m done stressing about my party & ready to really focus in school. I’ve been failing theater & barely going ): Statistics—I thought I was doing okay, but when it comes to testing, I suck. I get it when we’re learning it & doing homework, but my mind goes blank during an exam. I failed my first one ):
My debut was more than what I expected. I expected...
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I just wanna breatheeeeeee .
I wish all of my school stuff would get done on its own! I wish everything for my party was ready … I wish the stupid sky would clear. I wish, I wish, I wish. Where the fuck is my fairy god mother or genie in a bottle?
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madisonannex2:
I expect so much for from people not only because I’d be willing to do that much more for them, but because I know I don’t expect things they aren’t capable of. That’s the sad part. My expectations aren’t crazy high. They’re within their reach, and yet they fail to grasp them. It’s unfortunate for them more so than me though. I don’t feel bad for myself. I feel bad for them. Lost...