I try to control everything in my life; I ruin everything. Im possessive as fuck & I wonder if thats why guys dont try to be with me. I shut everyone out when I get too close & I know thats what fucks me up every time. Im naggy as fuck & I constantly complain cos all I want is more, more, more. & im never satisfied.

On the contrary … I give my everything to people who dont do the same for me. If youre hungry, I give you options. If you need a ride, ill be there in a jiffy. If you need some cash flow, I got you on that too. When you need comfort, I can sit all day and hear you vent. Not only do I listen, I converse and ask questions to get a better understanding. I treat the most.important people like im commited for life—wife type.

So when I feel like im not getting everything I do in return, I become a naggy, complaining, unsatisfied bitch that doesnt think twice about what comes out of my mouth & after all is said and done, I regret regret regret, & to make up for it, I take that wife mentality of mine and become what I was before the nagging part.

& if you can’t take the mood swings, its best if you go. Im just so thankful you know me well enough to know itll pass.

A friend once told me: to love is to risk.

& its now or never, so I’m putting everything on the line. Maybe itll work in our favor this time.

Sb, I can’t get away from you.